i can not remember the last time i went to sleep without thinking thinking about how it would feel to never wake

the electricity of my body fading until it is a faint echo of the things i used to worry about as i slip into a melancholy euphoria free of the scratching worry that etches away at my eyelids keeping me in this cycle of constant exhaustion im finally free

free to enjoy those last fleeting seconds before they escape where the noise no longer matters and i can finally rest as the life moves on from this plane into the next and i can for a brief moment feel alive